Game Changer

I went to the doctor this week for one reason and one reason only: to ask him to diagnose me as being morbidly obese. That’s incredibly depressing, let me assure you. It’s one thing to know it, but it’s another to be labeled.

The reason for this diagnosis is that I am entering the Jewish Hospital Weight Loss Program. The only way that I have any hope of getting help from my insurance company is for my doctor to tell me that I am endangering my life.

For the past few weeks, the Holy Spirit has been throwing things at me that cannot be ignored. The Free* series that my church has been going through was one of the first things that smacked me in the face. In my journal for the series, I wrote the following statement: “My inability to lose weight has made me believe that I cannot succeed in anything.”

Ouch.

Next, my pastor, Joe Boyd (author of the fantastic new book Between Two Kingdoms…it sold out on Amazon.com) talked about how his Biggest Loser scale told him that he was obese. He’s not big. I would kill to be his size. If he’s big…what am I?

Finally, one of my work friend’s neighbors, that is 35 years old, died in his sleep. He was perfectly healthy…what does that say for me?

I don’t want to leave a widow. I don’t want to miss my son growing into a man. I want to be able to join the AARP. I want to celebrate our 50th anniversary.

So, I’m going balls-to-the-wall. This program is meal-replacement shake based. 800 calories per day. It would be pretty average for me to lose 100 pounds by Christmas.

OMG (and that is a prayer). This process will also help my prayer life…no doubt.

This is going to get me blogging again for sure. I’ve missed it, but I needed some space. Now, I’m ready.